Thursday, April 19, 2012

Wait for it...


I chose, several months ago it seems, to put something off. I kind of felt like the Hippocratic Oath: "First do no harm." And I won't recant and say that waiting was a bad decision, but the longer I waited the more tense the situation became. And who wants discomfort? I didn't. I just wanted space. Silence.

Do you ever feel as if you don't quite have the words you need to express a feeling? That was me. But the miracle was, that when the dice began to roll the words came. There was a clarity I lacked before that suddenly appeared. I understood what I had been struggling with and putting off for so long.

My grandpa has a saying, "Nothing is as good or bad as it first appears." And truly, facing my true feelings were not as bad as I had thought. Perhaps I could have talked them out sooner. Or maybe I did need the hiatus to figure things out.

Oprah has a feature in her magazine this month about what she would say to her younger self. And while I'm still quite young I get her.

You get a little older and while life may still move swiftly, your thoughts start to slow and you are able to process things more clearly, or better yet.... simply wait for them to process themselves.